Straddling the Fence of Just Being...

What does it feel like to not know where and what you are doing at every given moment of our lives?

When I was younger I was taught that straddling the fence was a very very bad thing. One should not straddle about being a believer, saved, and if you did your life was surely in peril....or your afterlife I should say. So I learned earlier (through fear) that I should never straddle any fences....I needed to find myself on either side of the fence and hopefully the side that didn't have a really really mean and hungry dog on it.

Now that I have had many years to walk this earth I have found that we find ourselves straddling many different things simultaneously. Teetering and tottering on life's many obstacles, choices and decisions we must at some point make.

Sometimes I just want to be..I want no choices, no decisions to make and for sure no obstacles. It just would be easier sometimes....and while I believe that parts of my life would be colorless, don't you ever just wish that your life was just plopped down in front of you like your parents used to sit your dinner plate in front of you? Remember, dinner time at your house was not like a buffet? There was no menu....no choice. YOU just ate.....

I am tired of straddling the fence of so much of my life...I just want to BE....I want to immerse myself in an area with no fence....just a wide open empty space where there seems to be no ends and no beginnings....in this place I can take pleasure in just being..................


Thank you JC for inspiring this piece.